Day 181: 3/10/12 - "Uncharted"

"No words, My tears won't make any room for more,
And it don't hurt like anything I've ever felt before,
this is no broken heart,
No familiar scars,
This territory goes uncharted..."

-"Uncharted" by Sara Bareilles

Tardiness is not a Good Trait: This post is late.  Why?  Because for the first time since I started doing a daily blog, I completely forgot to post.  I've sort of forgotten before, but I've gotten up at midnight to put in my post because I am so committed to this (or should be committed). But this time I didn't realize I had forgotten until this morning.  Maybe I can blame it on Day Light's Savings Time?  I had to move my clocks forward which threw me off with my sleep today and I woke up feeling as if I was wasting the day away.  And now it is 10:15 pm and I'm not tired but I know I need to go to bed soon. *sigh*

 Forced Fun:  I really need to do something fun next Saturday since it is St. Patrick's Day and there will likely be some big parties going on.  The only issue?  I don't have anyone to go out with.  Would it be completely pitiful if I went out by myself?  Probably...

Day 40: 10/21/11 - "I Am"

"I never had a day where money didn't get in my way"

- "I Am" by Train

Book Sale - Day 5: Today was the final day of the book sale (yay!).  Unofficially, we raised over $1800.  I have to now pack up all of the books and take the rest to Half Price Books to sell to them.  Doubt we'll get very much but at least we'll get rid of the rest of them...but not sure how I'm going to get them all there on my own - I'll have to try to find some help.

60 Hour Work Weeks: I decided to calculate how many hours I actually spent working this week and it all came up to 60.  I couldn't believe it myself.  I've had some long weeks but I don't think I've ever hit 60 hours before.  50, yes.  Easily.  But not 60.  The sad part about it all was that I felt as if this was my most unproductive week ever.  I hope that doesn't continue as I move forward but so far nothing is changing for the better.

Grow Some!  Today one of my co-workers came up to me to let me know that a library patron had told her that he thought I was "beautiful."  I should be flattered but it actually pisses me off!  Why tell her?  Why not tell me?  Am I that intimidating?  What's the worst that could happen?  I tell him that I don't date students, or I tell him I'm not interested, or I tell him thank you and that I appreciate the compliment?  I'm tired of men too scared to say hello to a woman - if you think someone is beautiful - just tell them!  I actually find it creepier that you tell someone who is a stranger to you!!!

Day 34: 10/15/11 - "Billionaire"

"I wanna be a billionaire so fricking bad

Buy all of the things I never had"

- "Billionaire" by Travie McCoy

Match.com: I mentioned previously that I let my subscription to Match expire a week ago after an unsuccessful year of searching.  But though my subscription was canceled, I still had an account.  Today I received a message from Match that I had received a wink, a like, and two messages.  I didn't go to look right away - why bother?  But I finally got around to it tonight and what do I find out?  Match won't let you see messages sent to you if you aren't currently subscribed.  This didn't surprise me too much, but what did surprise me (and piss me off) was that they wouldn't even let me SEE who had sent me the message.  Don't they think that I might be interested enough to subscribe again if I at least can see the person who took the time to contact me?  Instead, I went through and canceled my account completely - I have finally had it with these online dating companies, who claim they want to help you be successful but all they really care about is taking your money.  And I'm tired of these people who are on these sites looking for anything but a real person.  time to face to truth - I'm not going to find "the one" online because there is no "one."  Can't find what doesn't exist.

5k: I finally made it through another 5k today - it's been a while.  I may not ever be able to run outside again and I'll likely never be part of a race again, but at least I actually jogged/ran the entire thing.  39 minutes was a sucky time, though.  I need to get that back down to at least 34 minutes if I can.  I'd love to get back down to 31 minutes, which is my race low, but I don't see how I could possibly shave 8 minutes off of my time.

Back to the Doctor: I have my check in with the endocrinologist on Wednesday.  I've been actually looking forward to this for a month now due to the bad symptoms I've been dealing with.  Too bad I have to refill my prescription tomorrow when he might wind up changing it in 3 days.  After I finish with him I'm going to have to schedule an appointment to see a dermatologist and then a cardiologist.  Not sure where I'm going to get the time or money for either but II can't keep putting these things off.  I need to try to take care of myself, even if I don't have the motivation to do so.

For Your Viewing Pleasure: I rarely re-post videos, and I've never posted one in my blog, but I got a kick out of this one.  This is the Ohio University marching band doing LMFAO's Party Rock Anthem and doing it well!  As a former band geek, I'm proud to say that these guys and gals have skills!