"Lay all you want on me
Lay all you want on me
Lay all you want on me
I'll be your whipping boy..."
-"Whipping Boy" by Train
Sick & Tired: To say I'm sick and tired right now is nearly an understatement. I'll already dreading tomorrow when I will have to force myself to go back to work and try to figure out how to balance a day with no breaks. I took today off to try to reboot myself - but I think it back fired. After visiting the doctor this morning I've now been scheduled to see 3 more specialist and I'm putting one other on hold until I have some answers. I'm also now scheduled for two more procedures (minimum) and hopefully an answer that can be treated - that's all I can ask for right now.
Motivation: I've lost all of my motivation again - I hate this seemingly never-ending cycle of slowly building my motivation back up and then having it just disappear again. How am I supposed to maintain or finish anything? I've got projects running that I have no hope of finishing and other projects that I have enough sense to not even start. When did I become such a failure at the things I find fun in life?
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