"Maybe I should take my time
And build this life by my own design
With no direction and it's in between
Everything I love and everything I need"
-"Heaven" by O.A.R.
Real Conversations: It's funny how you sometimes get to have conversations with someone that are a bit unexpected but turn out to be one of the best conversations you could have had - especially at that particular time. That's what happened to me today and though I didn't learn anything new, it was good to get a chance to have someone validate my own thoughts and plans. It was also painful for me to recount some things that bothered me when they happened but I now realize I had absorbed them and they were festering in me. This is what leads to increased stress, which is not good for me emotionally or physically. I now have both feet planted on the ground and pointed in the right direction. I also have a plan....
Small Victories: Today I accomplished something so small, so insignificant, that no one else would really care or understand. But to me, it was a victory, albeit a small one. I can't go into great detail, but suffice it to say that I won the stare down; held my breath the longest; blinked last...you get my drift. I won!
Planning a Trip: I'm going to plan a trip for myself. I need to take a vacation - I need to get away. I need to go and do something fun and completely out of character for me! I don't know what this is just yet, but I'll figure it out soon. I also know that no matter what I do, I won't feel guilty about it...won't second guess myself...and won't mope around my hotel room...and won't forget why I'm there to begin with.
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