"I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be..."
Or return to where we were
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be..."
-"White Flag" by Dido
So Sad: There are days when I look at my life and realized just how empty it is sometimes. Today was one of those days. I wanted to get up and go do something but I didn't have anyone to call and I didn't want to go out by myself. I've gone through periods of time where I don't care if I'm alone when I go out to eat, or go to the movies. But today I knew I would be too self-conscious to do that. I'd think about people staring at me and feeling sorry for the girl who has to eat alone, watch a movie alone, be alone. Yes, this reeks of paranoia and is not logical, but it is how I would feel and I know I wouldn't enjoy the food, the movie, or even just the time. So I stay home instead and feel sorry for myself instead of dealing with people feeling sorry for me. Ironic, huh?
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