"Like a bluebird with his heart removed
Lonely as a train
I’ve run just as far as I can run..."
-"How Long" by The Eagles
Too Much? I tackled packing today. I'm slowed down by the fact that I also have to clean, throw some things away, and sort and shred others. But I packed up the side tv stand, and book shelf in the living room. I'll tackle the coffee table and the dining room tomorrow. I think I'll be able to get most things done if I stick to my one box a day rule. The six boxes I did today make up for all of last week, I think. And I shredded a 3 foot high stack of papers as well. Tomorrow I'll also tackle the filing cabinet - time to weed it down based on how long I'm supposed to keep my paperwork.
Tough Decisions: I suppose I'm supposed to be happy right now, but I'm not. I'm about as low as I've been in a long time and I can't blame my medicine or my health. I think I'm just saddened by the fact that no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, I just can't get ahead. You'd think that by now I would realize that I don't deserve anything better. I guess there is something to the idea of people trying to be "better" than the world wants them to be. Some days it feels like I'm the mole in a Wac-A-Mole game...and the person doing the whacking is the best to ever play the game.
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