"Games, changes and fears,
When will they go from here?
When will they stop?"
- "I Try" by Macy Gray
Hypothyroidism: Before my surgery, I had a slight case of hypothyroidism, based on my symptoms, but not based on my blood work. Today I went back in for my 6 week check up and was told that I was severely hypothyroidic (is that a word)? Let's just say that my doctor told me to double my dosage over the next 4 days because my levels were so low. The only good news is that I haven't lost my mind. I thought all of these strange symptoms were just me not doing well in general. I'm hoping that once I get myself to a normal level I will start to feel more human. Right now I'm always on edge and depending on the provocation, I either want to yell at someone or cry...tonight it is cry. How embarrassing is that? To be having a normal conversation with someone about something that is pretty innocuous, and all of a sudden I'm sniveling because I'm fighting the urge to cry. Hell, I'm fighting the urge to cry right now!
Book Sale - Day 3: I found out that we out-sold last year's book sale after only the 2nd day. Now I have a new goal for the sale - I'd love to be able to donate $2,000 to charity for this sale. I think it would be a great showing for us and really help uplift the spirits of many involved in the campaign. Who knows, it might lift my spirits as well.
Born in the Wrong Time: I used to say that I thought I was born in the wrong time. I have the type of mentality that I always thought would be better appreciated in years past. But a friend just reminded me of something that I don't think about. If I had been born in a different time, in the past, I would not have made it past my 27th birthday. Why? Gall bladder disease, for one. It would have killed me when it flared up 8 years ago. Even if I had survived that, what about the thyroid issue? And add in the fact that I have an astigmatism and I would have been running around the world unable to see two feet in front of my face. Guess I need to start being grateful I was born when I was.
Writing Buddy: A friend of mine suggested that we try to support each other as writing buddies. I hope it will be enough to get me moving on finishing some of my work. I really need to complete at least one of my stories. I know that they won't sell, but I have to finish something. I can't go through life failing at everything I try...
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